There comes a time when you feel at your weakest, that’s when you know you need to turn things around. But these things that you want to change, they don’t just come about naturally. You have to take action, you have to make it happen. Every step, no matter how small, is also a step taken. Whether it is a step in the right direction or one in the wrong, you will never know. No, you will never know, not until you pluck your courage and take that first step.

The past week has been trying, i’ve learnt to balance my time appropriately and i’ve been able to handle the workload thrown in year 3 thus far. The past week has really been tiring, late nights continuously reflecting, projects. But i’d decided it was time for change, and i’m really putting in every effort i can into putting my words and thoughts into action. I honestly do not know when i will fall into that hell hole again. Let’s just pray that i do not.

Talking about praying, taking a step back to faith has also been a tough one after so long away from it. Partially to please my parents, partially to find deeper reason in this life we live in. I want to do this to give myself a second chance with God, because when my faith was at its strongest, i felt he had deserted me. I felt cheated to be honest, then i got lost. So now i’m like a lost sheep finding his way back to the herd He shephards. Prayer, i may joke about it, but i really pray that it will work out for me this time around.